and what if 



I have more cursed knowledge in my head than you

if I know what they put in the bottled water 

the mustard seeds 

the air we breathe

know the CIA infiltrated video games 


That yes we were born this way 

because we are a product of the government 

just as much as God ?

( just as much as Rupert Murdoch )


Who knows what they intended

this high school of intellectuals and Machiavillians

who injected Tuskeegans with syphilis

who invented acid and leaked it to the masses


Did they get what they paid for 

these bastards who hack us

track us

pin and tack us

count and mount us 

who measure our worth in productivity ?


Did they want a lowering GDP 

a quiet quitting 

this dis-ease of living ? 


I hate that you would hate me 

that you would misconstrue my ability 

to understand you 

think that I have not tucked in a silent cage 

( that I have not raged )

that I have not tried to teach 

to learn 

to change 

to save 


That I have not desperately ( desperately ) 

wanted to identify the source of this pain 

and cut it from my face ?


We have become what they made 


Silver lining ?

this probably isn't what they wanted anyway